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Life stories > Sacrifice Of Jesus Christ


Sacrifice of Jesus (Telugu)


I am M. N. Paul, former Member (Projects), Andhra Pradesh State Electricity Board, in the Government of Andhra Pradesh between July 1992 to May 1995, retired from State Government Service in the month of May 1995 and presently staying in Hyderabad. I am working as the Executive Director of M/S BBI Power Inc., an Independent Power Producer with Headquarters in Stevensville, Maryland, USA.

My ancestors were Kshatriyas and belonged to the Cavalry in the Kingdom of Chatrapati Shivaji of Maharashtra fame. When that kingdom deteriorated, the British disbanded the armies of the Maharashtra Kingdom and drove the soldiers out of Maharashtra. Those Kshatriyas settled in different parts of our country. One branch settled in Andhra Pradesh about 250 years ago. My ancestors are from that branch.

The late Sri. Muktyala Venkateswara Rao and the late Smt. M. Jaggamma are my parents. My elder brother, Sri. M. Veera Raju , was born in August 1930. He graduated in civil engineering in the year 1950. He worked as Chief Engineer in the Irrigation Department of the Government of Andhra Pradesh and also as Chief Technical Examiner to the Government of Andhra Pradesh. He retired from service in 1988 and settled in Kakinada, East Godavari District of Andhra Pradesh. I was born as the second son to my parents, in November 1936. I graduated in electrical engineering in the year 1958. I have a younger sister who was born in June 1940. Her husband is a graduate in medicine, worked as Deputy Civil Surgeon in the Government of Andhra Pradesh, retired and settled in Kakinada.

My father and mother were very orthodox Hindus. While studying in the PR. College in Kakinada, while in the Intermediate Class, my father came under the influence of Brahma Samaj. Slowly his faith in Hinduism became weakened. The late Sri. N. Daniel was a classmate of my father. This gentleman discussed and explained Jesus Christ to my father. My mother’s father had a younger brother who was a learned person but an atheist. He made my father study books written by famous atheists like Ingersoll and others. Mr. Daniel gave books written by Bible scholars replying to the books written by Ingersoll and other atheists. My father was utterly confused by all this and decided to make his own comparative study of religions and find the truth. He studied Hindu scriptures , Quran (English Translation) and the Bible. He spent more than 25 years in his quest for truth and finally found that the answer is Jesus Christ only.

As per the customs in our families those days, a girl child is not permitted to go to school after attaining the age of 10 years. From that age onwards, the girl child has to be confined to the four walls of her house only. She cannot even go onto the verandah of the house! Immediately after attaining that age, marriage of the girl child had to be completed. Such being the custom, my mother could study up to Class V only. From then on she was grilled in Hindu religious studies and poojas, fasting and praying and other rites. The older ladies in the home and Brahmin purohits were in charge of teaching the poojas and other rites to my mother and her two elder sisters. Thus, my mother became a very staunch and orthodox Hindu. We being from the Kshatriya Caste, the second highest one after Brahmins, my mother practiced untouchability and other customs. When my mother was about 12 years my grandfather performed her marriage. My father was still in quest of truth when his marriage took place.

Naturally, my mother brought us up under those strict rules. My mother had special affection for me and I too loved my mother very much. So her influence was great on me.

Having found Christ, my father taught my mother about Jesus Christ and explained to her that He is the “Prajapathirdevebhyam Athmanam Yagnam Kruthwa Prayaschittaha” mentioned in Vedas. He told her that the prayer of our Sages Asathoma Sadgamaya; Thamasoma Jyotirgamaya; Mruthyorma Anmruthamgamaya was answered by Jesus Christ in definite terms: “I am the Way, the Truth and the Life; No man cometh to the Father but by Me” and “I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on Me should not abide in darkness.”  My mother was confused those days because her husband was telling her about the God of the untouchables! Though she was convinced after some time she was concerned about us children. So my mother used to send me to temples and Hindu festivals along with her eldest sister. Those trips imbibed in me the caste system, etc.

After years of efforts of my father and other converts to Christianity from Brahmins and others, slowly my mother accepted Jesus Christ as her personal Saviour. My parents took quite some time in deciding whether we three children also were to be converted to Christianity along with them. They were sure of excommunication by our relatives. Marriages of the children was a great concern my parents were seized of. Finally, they decided to convert us, the three children also along with them, whatever be the consequences.

My father, mother, my elder brother (aged about 13 years then), myself (about 7 years then) and my younger sister (aged about 3 years then) converted to Christianity on the 27Th of February 1944.

My mother, who was a staunch Hindu became a staunch Christian after conversion. She tried to bring us up, her children, to be good Christians. She taught us that idol worship is not acceptable to God and that God wants us to worship with our soul because God is a Spirit.  She made us read the Bible and pray at home, attend church and prayer meetings conducted by Christian preachers. But, due to the influence of students in the school, I was not able to decide whether I have to follow in the footsteps of my parents – specially my mother who loved me very much and whom I loved as much – or to follow the other relatives (who are all Hindus even today).

During the year 1946, my mother was diagnosed to be suffering with a fibroid tumor in her womb. My maternal uncle’s son (who married my sister later) was studying medicine in the King George Hospital and Medical College at Visakhapatnam. He got my mother examined by Dr. (Mrs.) Lazarus, a very well noted gynecologist in the King George Hospital and Professor of Gynecology. She told my brother-in-law that there was no hope for my mother because all efforts of Dr. Lazarus to treat the anemic condition of my mother did not bear any fruit. So Dr. Lazarus opined that my mother might live for about 6 months only, at best. Fervent prayers of my parents and several Christian friends and saints were answered by God and my mother lived till February 1983—a full 37 years more than the estimated life span according to a noted Doctor. It was a miracle. This miracle had a profound impression on me that Jesus Christ is a prayer hearing and answering God.  But, my heart was full of sin and sinful thoughts. I was getting influenced by some students and was on the path of waywardness. At home I was reading the Bible and praying to please my parents only. Once in the school I was a different fellow. My heart was hard as a stone and full of hypocrisy.

Between the years 1950 – 1954 I was a Boy Scout. Our schools used to send us, the Scouts, to temples to assist and regulate the pilgrims at the bathing ghats. These temples are situated either on the banks of irrigation canals or the temples have small tanks inside the temple complex. Pilgrims bathe and then enter the temples to offer prayers to the deities. While on duty at the bathing ghats I was looking at the water, which was becoming extremely turbid due to several thousands of pilgrims bathing. Similarly, water in the temple tanks is very stale because there is no way of emptying the tanks and cleaning them. The conditions there raised questions in my mind—water in the canals and temple tanks is not clean and hence cannot clean the body. Then how can that water cleanse our souls?

My father worked in Ramachandrapuram and Peddapuram in the East Godavari District of Andhra Pradesh during the years 1947 to 1951. While I was studying in the High Schools there, some of my classmates were coming to school from nearby villages. During a few festivals they invited me to their houses to spend a day with them. During those visits I saw cocks, he-goats and rams being sacrificed to the village deities. I could not appreciate or understand the significance of animal sacrifices and the rituals. During the years 1951 and 1952, animal sacrifices and pilgrims bathing in stale water were bothering me too much. I requested my father to explain the rituals, etc. My father explained by quoting from Vedas and the Bible:*

1.

Yagnovy  Bhuvanasya  Nabhi.

Sacrifice is the important backbone of the world.

2.

Sarvapapa  Pariharo  Rakthaprokshanamavasyam. Thadraktham Paramathmeva Punyadana  Baliyagam.

Blood sprinkling is necessary for cleansing of sins. This blood is the result of God Himself offering His own blood through a sacrifice.

3.

Prajapathirdevebhyam  Athmanam  Yagnam  Kruthva  Prayaschittaha.

God offered Himself as the sacrifice for atonement of sins of the world.

4.

Prajapathiryagnaha.

God Himself was the sacrifice.

5.

Yagnovaa Avathi  Thasya Chaya  Kriyathe.

Sacrifices being practiced are the shadow of the Supreme Sacrifice.

6.

Nakarmana  Manushtanairna   Danasthapasavya Kaivalyam  Labhathe  Marthyah.

Cleansing of sins is not possible by baths, pilgrimages, giving dana or by following dharma.

*Note: These verbal quotations are some from the Bible and some from Hindu Scriptures.  We have been unable to locate the exact quotations in several cases.  Some of these seem to be orally transmitted vedic ideas or ‘sanskritized’ versions of statements from the Bible.

Then my father made me read the following passages from the Book of the Prophet Isaiah 53 Chapter verses 5 to 12 from the Holy Bible: “But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.  All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.  He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth.   He was taken from prison and from judgement: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.    And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth.  Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shall make his soul  an offering for sin, he shall  see his seed, he shall prolong his days, and the pleasure of the Lord shall prosper in his hand.    He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.  Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he hath poured out his soul unto death: and he was numbered with the transgressors; and he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.”  Then he showed me the similarity of what the Vedas said and what the Bible says, namely, 1) without shedding of blood there is no remission of sins, 2) sacrifice is essential for remission of sins and 3) God Himself offered His Body for the sacrifice to atone for the sins of all of us.

Then my father quoted more slokas from the Vedas and verses from the Bible to prove that the “Paramathmeva Punyadana Baliyagam” and “Prajapathiryagnah” have been fulfilled in the crucifixion of Jesus Christ only. My father also quoted slokas which say that after the yagnapasu is slain, it must be brought back to life and that flesh of the yagnapasu is to be eaten by the performers of the yagna. My father read verses from the Bible Gospel according to St. Matthew, Chapter 26,  verses 26 to 28: “ And as they were eating, Jesus took bread, and blessed it, and break it, and gave it to the disciples, and said, ‘ take eat; this is my body.’  And he took the cup, and gave it to them, saying, ‘ Drink ye all of it; For this is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many for remission of sins.  My father read verse 19 from Chapter 22 from the Gospel according to St. Luke; “ And he took bread, and break it , and gave unto them, saying, ‘ this is my body which is given for you; this do in remembrance of me.’  Likewise also the cup after supper, saying ‘ This cup is the new testament in my blood, which is shed for you.’

Thus, my questions were fully answered by my father and I was enlightened. But I was not a Christian at heart. In the presence of my parents I was pretending to be a Christian, but once in the midst of my friends I was not a Christian!

My mother took my sister and me to Christian meetings conducted in April 1953 by the late Mr. G. R. Lorn, a godly man.  During the course of the meetings I was convicted of my sins. I knelt down to pray alone. One after the other, the sins I committed began to appear before my eyes! I began to weep inconsolably. I began to pray fervently to Jesus Christ to forgive my sins. I told Him in prayer that because of my sins, I also took part in His crucifixion. I prayed him to pity me and to cleanse me from all my sins. After I confessed all my sins, immense joy came into my heart and I saw a verse from the Bible - “ Then I will sprinkle clean water upon you, and ye shall be clean: from all your filthiness, and all your idols, will I cleanse you. A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you a new heart of flesh. And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them. And ye shall be my people, and I will be your God.” These verses are from the Book of the Prophet Ezekiel,  Chapter 36, verses 25 to 28 in the Bible. Then and there I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Saviour and became a Christian at heart. I am saved from hell by the grace of God only.

Dear readers, I take great pleasure in sharing the love of God that saved me from sin and gave me eternal life. Please read the Bible yourself and test the words of Jesus Christ. I pray God to show you His grace and save you also.

M. N. P.
Hyderabad, India.


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